My favorite self question is ‘do you feel real’ at this present early sunrise moment about 75-25% real and manipulated. The past few days it’s been more of 95-5% real – manipulated. think they just had other priorities other than me. For this is kinda unusual. Awoke about 3:45am or so, been having coffee – honey lemon tea, and some breakfast and some smokes. its now 7:30am. Oddly enough earthly air-waves propagation also seems to be a mood factor, possibly anyway, unsure.
What should i say – deeply respect you. for trying to help and there is really nothing you can do to help. no one can. Optimistic, pragmatic, redundant, dogmatic, materialistic and least not forgotten accomplishment rewards of/with pride, confusions also – words with feeling, mood and manipulatable usable and erasable. From the mid 1980s time into today as experienced, anyway, much longer maybe for some. <p /></b>
One trillion sextillion four quadrillion 10 years and a few weeks ago god was real and adam and eve became somewhat physical. Perhaps in a difference universe perhaps without colors other than light and dark perhaps not so far away. Perhaps you think me just crazy. that’s o.k. too.
Psychobabble we do not need.
of the many different types of loves, <br />
yours truly…me.
i hope you find the completeness and the loving kindness you deserve.
it may lay only within the ether of the after somewhere in time.
something i hope everyone finds.
will it ever be earthly…ever
be it human or the others.
and if more trouble finds me, so be it.
and trouble found me after this posting within my sleeping dreams of horrors, unbalanced liberty and shame from the manipulator as to void the above emotions.
This morning, different, its been five-six days or so since the dreams and the mood harassing communicators are gifting me a feeling of energetic manic disappointments. This feeling inspires a somewhat mood of stupidity of actions. Like being a smart-ass or sarcastic to someone or simply doing something to get yourself in trouble with others. by being mindful of this experience one can choose the high road of actions and not comply. Just be mindful and let the bastards not be successful.