Bruce Lee just taught me in so many words what you think and say about yourself becomes yourself. from life experience from childhood on i was taught from my parents and the communicators in my mind that everything is my fault, everything that happens. and i am fearful to change from the fear of future blames. for if there is any change of attitude then blames will have to be faced. went to a therapist, she was a blinded idiot for i told her of how there is self blame for everything and she didn’t address it at all. not one ioda. fucking manipulators of life who do not listen to truth of an external communicator causing nothing but chaoses i am not psychic. you ignorant bastards who just speculate within your ignorant limited knowledge without experiences. and cannot do anything but feel pities within patiences and listen. and as listening, learning of old leadership EVILS and their future distorted cairns.
dear persistent assistant communicator and mood manipulator
why do you give solid resolve and just as quickly turn around and give fears and confusions of a schizophrenic mindset! you are nothing but a coward. a fearful dictator a bully and afraid of truth.
admirations, thoughts of…
there is no self admiration of this life.
and i do not want any from others. it will be simply your disappointments.
please remember this. life is change and mine will be shown the worst of lifestyle.
so it feels. and unless the political climate changes, the world over will be changed as well,
and not for the better.
children, we all seek admirations. please, use a natural intelligence within maturities way. don’t seek, then wait for the natural mature love of another which is not physical but a spiritual love of one another. if epstein has taught us anything it is this. there are many, many who will take advantage of your immaturities in seeking an admiration. you will become a victim, entrapped. and so many immature so called adults do the same…make mistakes in their careers looking for admirations of trying to force promotions. a supervisor once told me a story…that an employee came to his office asking him ‘what is MY near future within this job?’. the super was dumbstruck at such a wannabe oof/with needing an unearned admiration and promotion. and super the answer is simple. say if you aren’t satisfied within your present duty then hit the door. i have 10,000 more just like you who would appreciate your job. and employees first you must be completely satisfied where you are at right now and portray an impeccable duty with a job extremely well done and wait for opportunities, not try to force them.
clergy and parent. the symptoms are easy to spot. teach your youngsters how not to be taken advantage of, please. and you better not take advantage of. there are plenty who will cut you deep. tell them what they feel we all feel. the need of admirations. teach them what should be by educations and maturities. make it a resolution in your life
relationships, thoughts of…
alone within myself. no one to share with ,that is like the way i am in knowledge of and of
myself. there is no true other me to talk to. known of anyone who has lived
in the same cosmic personal way of. no one who really understands the experiences
Similar of me. so it is mostly shared within with my cosmic communicators . but there is always fears
of betrails even with them. because its not known just who or what they really are. they are sight and
sound, feelings and implanted though also at time controllers of actions.
anything, mind and body can be manipulated. in the 1960s and
70s they were first person manipulators known as m.k. ultra.
today its done with distance using alien technologies.
thats all i have to go on as so far as who.
other than completely aliens, thats possible as well.
and its felt unsafe even to say this.
Nirvana Nevada. Thoughts within.
so The wasp and fly met in the middle of the windows glass. One on one side the other on the other side. And they asked each other at the same time, how did you get past? Unseen to the two was that they both came from the same prison, simply the opposite side. They walked up, down, around until they both died only to be reborn a wasp, a fly both without memory of the prison.
An abyss to be within with eternal spirit life memory is better than ignorant paradise. Within your spirit lays the creation imagination and beautiful intent and the ability to form a universe harmonious. Give me a void nothing any day.
The infinite is nothing and everything at the precise same time.
Ancient river stone lying in the driest of desert beds fill me with your memories. Hidden temple pathways. Lanterns in the skies. Where will be hearing from Mr. Continuous assistant communicator, where next will you take me? Obsidian reflection of the all seeing eye and/or, ‘how goes the course’ my Americas’ astronaut. search your infinite spirit memories, my friends. Search for your infinite hence forgotten. Look beyond the beautiful mesmerizing horizons…
being alone in relationships…
and in the cosmos of life, mine especially there be tons of unknown debris of words and wars of words yet to be in carport and living rooms of clamoring alone. only one person accepts this responsibility of a reality, me. it could be at any moment, a new beginning again within the limitless possibilities of topics. do not think you would accept this lifestyle of/in a silent acceptance of ignoring societies life like i have to be without, and alone but not ever really alone without feeling of you yourself, too ignored. Just how it’s been for many years past and will continue until death.
thats just the way this shit is. so i giving freedom time to others to be themselves and for me to be myself as well. there is understanding of the crazy factor
in it and how it seems from experience of the different realities viewed and experienced. After a while
one becomes exhausted, depressed after so much clamor. rest, real rest is non-existent for they, it, whatever is always present. as unnatural as it is, sometimes i feel the confusions of total insanities.
the truth will drive one insane or give them freedoms. is the manipulator men or the old dominion or both. it is a total invasion of privacy to be within someone’s thought. but that is the way the invaders live. they know no different.