The ability to ‘realize’ and vocalize all the thought. My mind is a quagmire of difference of acceptance and growth of knowledges. The old the more recent conflicting from habit of thought. Acceptance of life, the truth of it I am finding most difficult. The bipolar war of the old empire versus the domain.
Feelings of lack of completeness of my spirit, have had for a long time. Now known why and realize what the feelings are. It is a weakness from remembering a different me-self, sometimes sleeping dreamt about, but he seems to lack complete knowledge of is-be.
To be anything less than complete in lifetime spirit knowing is a useless experience. Finding it most difficult to accept this delusional illusional worldly experience.
Lack of ‘agency of self’ and less comprehension of deep reflective thinking. Not wanting to absorb, believe something as difficult and different as Aril, but have with time to reflect our wordly condition.