Been very distraught about/caused by my reactions to so much celebrating this holiday. Such waste is what i see. Why is it a downer to me and an upper for everyone else.
It was suggested to me to find a hobby so i thought to bonsai plant growing – after spending a bunch of money on pots and saplings and dirt i feel like a fool. Just another downer. I’m too old to wait until plants mature. Think to throw every bit of it into the trash can. Plants need to be in the ground, not pots.it just doesn’t feel right to pot them, and foolish of me to waste the money. the whim has depressed me. am just a fool.