night feelings

Strange but feel so much better at night after 11pm and also the early morning darkness hours.  Less depressed, more awake and alive just all around better than the daylight…

6/1/26 – back to a blog

Stressed out.  Finished reestablishing and reposting most of the blog. Stressed about the ecommerce conversion of a couple of months ago so it was deleted.  Despise my thoughtless ways of…

most of may 2026

THE NECESSITY OF FAITH - by Wendell Berry True harvest no mere intent may reap. Finally we must lie down to sleep And leave the world all we desire To…

febuary-march 2026

Bruce Lee just taught me in so many words what you think and say about yourself becomes yourself. from life experience from childhood on i was taught from my parents…

w.b.

Manifesto: The Mad Farmer Liberation Front by Wendell Berry Love the quick profit, the annual raise, vacation with pay. Want more of everything ready-made. Be afraid to know your neighbors…

march 2026 words

My favorite self question is 'do you feel real' at this present early sunrise moment about 75-25% real and manipulated. The past few days it's been more of 95-5% real…

The divergent, the common and the sage

Let's consider a busy city street scene. There is a shop owner along the street working on his high above business sign replacing a light-bulb climbing an old shaky tall…

mid april

Sitting, wondering the existence of everything. And the before of this universe not spoken of elsewhere. Saying, thinking within the infinite spance of all and the eternal time of all…

in april 2026

My life has not been my own having been used, abused and treated like an infant who is beyond their own decisions. Been stabbed in the back, harassed, bullied from…

4/26/2026

If there is anything worth saying tonight it is this ‘be spiritual’. That does not say ‘be religious’. There is quite a difference. Know your personal self through selflessness. Work…

some other place, life and time

Within the cosmic grace of emotion and the eternal spirit life perhaps our relationships can be more of completeness and oneness. Homes are set within the foundations of, and sometimes…

4/30/26

Today is 4/30/26 at about 4:30 a.m. and my self awareness is somewhat liminal. Have no idea why or what makes man unaware of their-selves. Think most do not even…

Collapsed staircase – 5/3/26

No foundation of the feeling of supporting love and without knowledge's both. Was always ‘on my own’ from day one. So therein made plenty of mistakes. Where is and what…

change

If given opportunities of study of my contained blog complete, as described the masks of earthly realities in the Castaneda writings. Compare the masks in the uranthia in light of…